breathing thoughts

people come and go. people change. from the last step I set foot here, many things passed and changed. I grew and learnt. 

In a blink of an eye,I’m taking my national exams tomorrow, time never waits.

I grew to hurt to love to leave.

I changed for the better, for the worst. 

love fades and love comes. 

I could be writing about the very same person but I could be perplexed about him. Maybe the one you and me were thinking about is not the same.

I torment myself daily after somebody who will never return.

between a person I chose to love and a person who loves me, I don’t know how to decide, how to go, where to start, how to stop.

the guilty conscience haunts and make its presence in the dead of the night. I knew I should have avoided, should have ran for my life but I stayed till the morning light as it dawned on me, a new beginning, also a start of suffering.

but as they say, you got to find the person worth suffering for.

I found the wrong one and still accepted it willingly.

I must be half-crazed, I laughed at the thought, I don’t know to be jubilant or wept the tears of agony.

people changed me.